MUSINGS
OF AN APPRENTICE CENTENARIAN?
I
still think I am occupying a 40 year-old body: even though my eyesight is no
longer anything like 20/20; even though I am getting progressively deafer; even
though I find it hard to bend down and tie up my shoelaces; even though after
shuffling as fast as I can to catch a tram before it pulls away I need several
minutes to get my breath back; even though it takes two days for the pain and
stiffness to subside from my limbs and joints after kicking the football with
my grandson.
Yes,
I am in denial that I am getting old.
Thoughts
of old age did not plague me when I turned 69, so why the big deal after turning
70?
I
suspect it is all the Bible’s fault.
Well,
at least the fault of the King James version that introduced the old English
term threescore years and ten. Way back then, the number 20 was referred
to as one score, therefore threescore was 60. Add on 10 and you’ve got 70 (just
to help out those of you who are arithmetically challenged).
Psalm
90 is said to have been written by Moses.
It
states, among other things, The days of our years are threescore years and
ten, not necessarily suggesting that come the age of 70 you’re scheduled to
shuffle off your mortal coil (to paraphrase Bill Shakespeare), because Moses
goes on to say, and if by reason of strength they be fourscore years, yet is
their strength labour and sorrow; for it is soon cut off, and we fly away.
Not exactly sure what Moses was on about here, except it is reasonably clear
that 70 years of age isn’t categorically exit stage right time and that life
may be stretched out to fourscore years, or 80 years.
I
think my mother, who is nearly 94 years old, and her elderly friends in an aged
care centre would politely disagree with Moses on that score as well (pun
intended).
However,
I wonder if my resistance to the notion of turning 70 is based on an age old
misunderstanding that threescore and ten years is our usual allotted lifespan
on the planet? Maybe at a deep, subliminal level in my mind this old distorted
superstition prevails. Add to this everyone’s primal fear of death, even if we
consciously deny it, maybe that is where I am coming from.
Be
that as it may, according to the King James Bible, Moses (or his ghost writer)
goes on to say, So teach us to number our days, that we may apply our hearts
unto wisdom. Now, my take on this (and I have to say I’m no biblical
scholar, so please don’t bombard me with accusations of heresy if you think I’m
on the wrong track) is something that certainly has been to the forefront of my
thoughts for several years now. And it is this: what legacy will I leave behind
after I die?
An
atheist friend of mine once told me that when you die, your only legacy is your
children. Part of you lives in them. Neat, but, somehow, not convincing.
No, I
would like to think my legacy could be a lasting, positive influence on my
children, my grandchildren and on others as well, through my thoughts, deeds
and actions. Specifically, by demonstrating kindness, non-judgment, tolerance
and understanding of others, maybe this will teach them to lead a happier and
more peaceful life and inspire others by their example as well.
But I am
getting a bit ahead of myself, because I am a long way short of consistently
demonstrating these admirable qualities. So, there is much for me to do before
I can aspire to this level of wisdom and behave accordingly.
Come to
think of it, it is unlikely to happen any time soon and, indeed, the process,
given my inherent and hard-wired resistance to attitudinal change and self-improvement,
might take years, even decades.
So watch
this space. It seems likely I can look forward to becoming a centenarian!
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